Family visit

Well, I haven't written anything in the past week because we've been busy ad have been on the road here and there, but I can fill you in...

Last Wednesday, Katie and I met my dad in Beebe to visit my grandmother. She is in a nursing home after suffering from a stroke, I believe. Her memory isn't exactly top notch, however, she does remember people and knows when you have been there for a visit. My dad says it comes and goes. I was very nervous to see her since its been a while. I really didn't know what to expect. Needless to say, it wasn't what I was expecting at all. She was in a wheelchair, unable to get herself up, she had a nervous tick in one of her hands, and she just didn't look like I wanted to remember her. Much to my surprise, she seemed to recognize katie as my dad pointed out we where there to visit. i wasn't directly in her line of vision, so she didn't see me well at first. My dad left after a few minutes to get a nurse for her, and as she slowly turned my way, I caught her eye. She looked at me and said, "Well..Amy...what are you doing here?". I explained that I was there to see her and for a brief moment she seemed happy...until her attention was drawn elsewhere. I'm glad that we got the opportunity and the time to see her. I left feeling a sense of relief, but also with a hint of sadness just knowing she was in the state she was in. I held back my tears while I was with her, but later that night, I cried. I love my grandmother very much. She did so many wonderful things for me over the years. I haven't spent much time with her over the past several years, but hope to spend more time with her as long as I can.

*The picture above is from Christmas of 2005. This photo was taken at her home in St. Charles; with Katie (age 4; almost 5).*

After seeing my grandmother, we headed out to my Aunt Linda's house. My dad, grandmother, and Aunt all lived on a piece of land together in St. Charles, AR., but all have moved within an hour or so of us. I'm excited to have them all so close. Over the past few years, I have neglected to spend time with my dad's family...and regret it deeply. I guess my reason was mainly for living so far away (having lived in Fayetteville anyway). It can be hard now at times, as I have to divide my time between several family member, which now includes my husband's family. With everyone so spread out, it can be hard to see everyone when you want. Either way, I had a great visit with my Aunt Linda, Aunt Robin, and my dad!! Katie had fun as always....but it was fun to watch my dad play with her!! It brought back some wonderful memories from my childhood!!